life..

Life....

my dream came true,

am now in the place that everyone wanted to be,

not all but most,

it was my dream since i first step to college of nursing cause,

i know only this place can change my fate,

not just mine but most important my family,

after 8 years,

i am HERE,

At first i really can't wait to come here,

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7 month now,

just came back from vacation,

the feeling that i had now came back to haunt me again,

i hate when this happen,

i thought that i'm a very strong person,

as this is what i wanted to be,

and that i longed to be here for so long,

i thought i can handle it,

too bad,

i'm still belong to the category of human being,

where you have to experience the sadness, loneliness, homesick, and so on...

not just that,

i have to suffer the total diffrent working environment,

people, languages, routine, ..........

What i want to tell here is, my journey to this place at first place is so wonderful,

after i came here,

i feel like i regretted it but at the same time it does really change the financial crisis in my family,

why should i suffer to travel so far,

just like some says,

you cant have both at same time,

will have to sacrifice either one,

so i sacrifice my family and put my career first,

i cried a lot when i get back here,

cause once again i am far from my family,

miss them!

and sometime i wish i will not go back for vacation cause it hurts me a lot!