mixture of sad +happy

I do happy,
when i get to know the offer
but it seems kak vila seems to be more happier than me,
because,
she can go with me,
2nd,
the offer is so great,
but then,
i told my family about it,
but this funny feeling,
that i had in me,
doesn't make me feel good somehow,
i was crying quietly in my bedroom,
somehow,
that feeling follow me to my work place....
my tears nearly burst out while i was on duty,
but i try to pretend as if nothing happen,
but then,
some of them notice the emo that i had that night,
as the night goes by,
that funny feel subside,
Supposingly,
i feel happy,
but,
so many thing i need to settle before i leave,
can i manage to settle it?
i hope can deal with it....
just can't believe what i dreamed since i was student nurse
became true.........
The long wait is worth it....
sAd,
because i need to sacrifice certain stuff.
happy,
cause what i want can be achieve once i work over there.......