sorry for being so rude...

i dun know wat happen to me yesterday and i vent my anger to kak vila... it so happen that the person is there... actually , it wasn't a big problem at all.. i guess i'm too emotional... i talked too loud tat i guess she overheard it... and i heard she was crying.. i really do regret wat i said yesterday.. don't know who to talk to.. i only can vent it over here to tell how regret i am....you can say i'm a very sensitive and emotional person.... even sometime i talk so rude and some people may find that i have a 'stinky mouth' as the chinese always said it... but deep down in me... i'm a person who can forgive easily if you start to talk to me first....
i'm a person who is very aggresive sometime... even my sibling always get scolded by me...all the harsh word and pushy thing ..i guess they must be regret to have as their big sis.... well back to my story, i do rasa malu when i saw her... so sad ...i dun know why i become like this.....or maybe there are so many thing i keep inside myself so much that i feel ' a bit' depressed.....
so many thing happen so little people known... for example... my relationship with my boyfren.. not much people know about it... coz both of us come from a difrent religion....neway don't want to brag about it either... coz i scared that my mum will get to know this and at the end she will not agree with us...and thereafter i have to keep it low......

again back to the main story,
well,,,, what i said is already said, i can't take it back.. what i can do is to control myself next time....and don't blame people easily.... i'm a bad person.. deep inside of me... i do want to say sorry to her but....i guess i'm not courage enough to tell her..... and i pray God bless her always..... that's all i can do.. is to ask God forgiveness for what i have said and done....and to kak vila sorry for taking your time to listen all my craps....;(