life..

Life....

my dream came true,

am now in the place that everyone wanted to be,

not all but most,

it was my dream since i first step to college of nursing cause,

i know only this place can change my fate,

not just mine but most important my family,

after 8 years,

i am HERE,

At first i really can't wait to come here,

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7 month now,

just came back from vacation,

the feeling that i had now came back to haunt me again,

i hate when this happen,

i thought that i'm a very strong person,

as this is what i wanted to be,

and that i longed to be here for so long,

i thought i can handle it,

too bad,

i'm still belong to the category of human being,

where you have to experience the sadness, loneliness, homesick, and so on...

not just that,

i have to suffer the total diffrent working environment,

people, languages, routine, ..........

What i want to tell here is, my journey to this place at first place is so wonderful,

after i came here,

i feel like i regretted it but at the same time it does really change the financial crisis in my family,

why should i suffer to travel so far,

just like some says,

you cant have both at same time,

will have to sacrifice either one,

so i sacrifice my family and put my career first,

i cried a lot when i get back here,

cause once again i am far from my family,

miss them!

and sometime i wish i will not go back for vacation cause it hurts me a lot!

lidah berbelah 2

Since his chinese animal zodiac is snake,
whic makes him more diifficut to trust,
his tongue really like snake,
say and do thing the other way round.

How am i suppose to live with this kind of guy,
arrgghhhh....
help me Lord....
why am i still hang on to the old memory.....

emotional tortured

As what cas said to me the other day,
which turn out to be true,
today when i surf his Facebook,
he erase our relationship status.
How suprise !
More suprise,
when i open his inbox,
he was trying to flirt with other gerl
by telling that gerl he saw that gerl before,
and ask that gerl to go out......

A quiet guy n yet mysterious really suprise me...
He really shows his true color.....

Lord, save me from him.....

mixture of sad +happy

I do happy,
when i get to know the offer
but it seems kak vila seems to be more happier than me,
because,
she can go with me,
2nd,
the offer is so great,
but then,
i told my family about it,
but this funny feeling,
that i had in me,
doesn't make me feel good somehow,
i was crying quietly in my bedroom,
somehow,
that feeling follow me to my work place....
my tears nearly burst out while i was on duty,
but i try to pretend as if nothing happen,
but then,
some of them notice the emo that i had that night,
as the night goes by,
that funny feel subside,
Supposingly,
i feel happy,
but,
so many thing i need to settle before i leave,
can i manage to settle it?
i hope can deal with it....
just can't believe what i dreamed since i was student nurse
became true.........
The long wait is worth it....
sAd,
because i need to sacrifice certain stuff.
happy,
cause what i want can be achieve once i work over there.......

can't believe it....

Owh GOd!
can't believe me and kak vila
been choosen to the most high paid hospital,,
the best part,
me and vila together,
wow!
so yesterday,
we guys have made the biggest decision in our life
to change the pace in our life....
to make the big leaps ever!
the 1st move is,
sign the offer letter,
follow by lots of thing that need to be done in certain period...

Take me out form the dark

my car got problem again yesterday
after work , wanna start the engine,
cannot ...
adui..
lucky,
cas and siva!
is there to hhelp me...
what a day!
myc ar baru ja repair not even 1 month pun
i guess i need to sell it off
ASAP!
as what cas and siva said...
Today,
went to service centre again with siva,
and siva told me rupanya they change recon punya knock sensor...
what the heck!
then, just only they change to original one,
yerrr...
main buyuk tul ohhh......
bikin panas! bayar seribu lebih
ni yang they they did to me!
Shoot!
Thank God lah ada guys yang can help me..
Then drove the car back with full blast of aircond
it turn out my car no problem pun...
yeay!!
hope fully can tahan lah a few more month!

can't wait!

so excited and yet scarry..
me and kak vila going for the presentation in 1 of the famous agency,
to hear our contract like,
main concern,
Hopefully they can wait us till september...
finger cross.....